Three bills

Well, I almost weighed 3 bills at my doctors appointment today. 300 pounds. A perfect bowling game. In October 2008, I weighed 212 pounds. That means in 3 years, I have gained 88 pounds. Nearly 30 pounds a year, every year, for 3 years. There are numerous factors, I suppose--adoption, Heather's cancer, and a host of others. My tendency to stress eat has been made obvious. But why do I persist? Why have I lost hope in my ability to be successful?

It's interesting, several years ago, I said that I would never allow my weight to go back over 215 pounds. Either I suck at math, or I lost sight of that goal. I do need to stop now.

Don't Flail

Why is getting back on track so difficult?  When we moved 4 years ago, I weighed a trim 213.  I felt pretty good.  My weight slowly crept up, but with the onset of my wife's cancer, I ballooned up to over 280.  I know the mechanics of weight loss, though I lack something.  Is it motivation?  Is it will power?  Self-control?  I assume some combination of those things.  Someone on the WW board tonight gave the sage wisdom, "don't flail."  I feel like I am flailing, grasping at what little hope there is for weight loss.  I have gone back to some dear friends for guidance--perhaps to serve as my two floaties. 

It's on

I haven't posted here for a while, but I thought I would drop an update that I am on a 2010 weight loss challenge with two good friends from church. Realizing I gained 53 pounds in the last 14 months (with most of it during the last few), I know that I need to do something. So here we go again, starting at 268, my highest weight since 2003.

Night on the town

On Saturday night, we had the pleasure of going to Minneapolis to attend the service at Bethlehem Baptist Church downtown. Afterward, we went with the Thuls to True Thai and I had Masaman Curry. The Better Choice was that I stopped about half way through. I couldn't believe it because it was literally the best Curry I've ever eaten.

Memorial Day

Memorial day was rough too. We had a party with many of our closest friends, but I ate about 69 WW points for dinner. Too much. Anyway, I ate lightly in the morning and at noon and I did journal, so I guess that I did MTBC in that regard.

Gallowalking

I was doing some thinking today and I realized that the time in my life when I was healthiest was when I was running and lifting regularly. I have been lifting now, but not running. I decided to work back in slowly using the Gallowalking approach. I went for a whole 12 minutes tonight. :D

5/24-Rough Day

I started the day well. I ate my standard oatmeal for breakfast, and an egg sandwich and a banana for dinner. I skipped Sundae Sunday at church, knowing that we were going to have to go to two parties today. At the first, I had a bunch of "cinnamon tortillas" which were really pretty amazing. At the second, I had some enchiladas, 2 tacos, and 3 pieces of cake. That was worse. Oh well. I am going to bike over to the video store now, hopefully to burn off some cals.